had one of those days where you feel you can't do anything right. Where everything you do seems to be wrong in some way or another. Well, today was one of those days for me. I am totally stressed about work. I currently feel I am worthless and am a total failure. Here I am thinking I am doing a pretty good job and now I feel the total opposite. A lot of things have been going on and I know that everyone is stressed to some degree. Just like any company at this moment in time, business is slow and money is tight. Everyone's jobs could be on the line. One day you're sitting behind your desk enthralled in whatever it is you do and the next you could be sitting behind your laptop on the couch, eating potato chips and icecream while watching tv, and trying your hardest to find something else out there to make ends meet and take care of your family.
I would be lying if I said I am not worried when it comes to this. That is why today has confirmed just that. I feel like I have let myself down and have been making careless, stupid mistakes and if I don't watch it I might find myself jobless, moneyless, and homeless. While that may be just a little bit dramatic, it may not be far from the truth given the current circumstances in our world today. I really need to be on top of my game and really think about what I am doing. I want to show them what I can do and that I know what I am doing. But days like today make me feel totally retarded and that I don't know what I'm doing.
I know I am not the only one feeling the pressure. Everyone around us is probably in the same boat. I am talking about just the fact that anyone's job can be at stake at any point in time. You really do have to think ahead and be prepared for anything. Being prepared is not easy and you really don't know what to prepare for. You just have to keep the faith, know that you will be taken care of, and live each day as it comes. As hard as it is, that's the way it is.
I just pray I can learn from all my current mistakes and really hunker down and change my whole attitude and output. I am very thankful to have a job and do realize I am also very fortunate to still have a job. There are millions and millions of people who would love to be where I am at right now. All I know is I have got to work and work hard and smart.
I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Logan
Thursday, February 5, 2009
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I totally know how you feel. I had one of those days yesterday. I felt like I couldnt do anything right and that my boss was going to feel it too. Then where would my family be? Granted Brad has a good job (although they have been doing layoffs there too) but we could not afford our current lifestyle on one income. We would have some major adjusting to do. But as a family we did decide to change the way we live as a family and try to survive off of one income. Granted we still have two~we are trying to put my paychecks in savings in hope that when we decide to have another baby I will be able to stay home. So with that being said we have started trying to find more free or close to free things to do. Such as Barns & Noble and Books a million both have free story time for the kids which is really cute. Also, we have cut back on eatting out and Brad has been taking a lunch to work. I have also started trying my luck at the whole coupon thing. Which is going great so far. I have found some great resources on couponing and have been getting most of our stuff Free or close to it which has really helpped. DOnt feel alone!
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